Queen To My Empress

[Verse 1]

In between the spotlight and thousands of screams

I found my passion, lying in serenity

In between the busy people that blended in these parties

You found compassion, in reckless sincerity.

 

[Chorus]

Say your kingdom has long been hopeless

Say you’re ash but only you can light my fire

Come be the Queen to my Empress

Only you can rule my long lost empire.

 

[Verse 2]

In between the spotlight and thousands of flashlights

Your eyes were on only mine

In between these parties there ain’t nothing but white lies

I still blindly believe in where love lies.

 

[Chorus]

Say your kingdom has long been hopeless

Say you’re ash but only you can light my fire

Let me be your only Highness

Be the hope of your kingdom of desire.

 

[Bridge]

In between the spotlight, screams and flashlights

No more ghosts, no more lies

Only our kingdom in the light

Only our empire on fire.

 

[Chorus]

Say your kingdom has long been hopeless

Say you’re ash but only you can light my fire

Come be the Queen to my Empress

Only you can be the ruler of my empire.

By Juliéy Pham

Strawberry Candy

Sweeter than candies and cakes

Wild and raw

If you taste a sweet strawberry while reading this

That’s how I felt about you.

 

Your friend said you can’t trust me

You don’t belong in the rainforest where I do

I wonder, did someone pick you up?

Cherish you the way I wanted to.

 

I still keep a piece of you in my closet

With your scent and some tiny stains

I bet you’re no longer wearing me on your wrist

Cause as of now you probably know how to spell my name.

 

It’s so hard to go back to how it was

Sometimes I ask myself, what you think of me

It’s even harder since I think you put your guards up

But no matter how tough life gets, please stay healthy.

 

—————–

 

I liked to watch you being yourself

I remember admiring your aura

You may not know this, but

Your aurora still reaches me even now that I’m far.

 

By Juliéy Pham

Aquarius

Chance is that you feel something, don’t you?

Chance is that you’re fascinated, aren’t you?

I mean come on who wouldn’t, who wouldn’t be?

Attractions are just bullshit everyone experiences with me

Set yourself apart with your chivalry

Weren’t you raised to be classy, not flashy?

Do you have scars you need to heal?

I have mine too, but for you I’m still willing to feel

Maybe we can help each other out, let’s make a deal

You heart I will open, with my heart I will seal.

I, you will make head over heels

You’re in this, quit playing, let’s be real.

I’m up for the chase, not for some game

I can make a fire out of your little flame

I can chase you until you fall into my arms

I know you’re already starting to fall for my charm

Baby come find out for yourself

In my mind right now there’s you and nobody else

I want your random little things to become your desire

I’m the best reputation, taste and knowledge you can acquire

Go ahead be mindless act sly all shy

Knowing for sure I’m out here slaying lives

With you there’s such a dilemma

It’d be a lie if I said I didn’t want you wrapped around me, kinda.

 

By Juliéy Pham

Best Youth Ever

[Intro]

*whispers*

You’re such a dream

Too good to be true

Are you real?

Be my best youth, will you?

 

Everyone wants to hear about my youth

About all the guys that have been trouble

My best youth is where I rule his empire

A King and a Queen, trouble is doubled

 

I let him go to continue my youthful days

Ruling everyone’s kingdom, being their mistress and temptress

But my best songs are about my best youth

Where I’m everyone’s Queen but his only Empress.

 

I can never run out of words to describe his youth

I talk about his empire with sparks in my eyes

Everyone says I’m a fool not to realize how I feel

He’s my Emperor in my deepest brightest piece of mind.

 

Our best youth ever has endless sequels

We never conquered, we fought for our dreams

What we had deserves all the worship

Three years passed by, forever one dream team.

 

Some day when we share the same path

Same feels, same fate

Same minds, same steps

Let’s write our best youth ever again.

 

[Outro]

*whispers*

You’re such a muse

Trigger me in every way

History will remember you

Be my best youth, forever and always.

 

By Juliéy Pham 

Maybe

[Verse 1]

Never felt vulnerable when it comes to you

Never wrote you a song after I let you go

For too long I’ve been burying my feelings for you

Is it too late now for me to let you know?

 

Maybe it’s cool, maybe I just miss you.

 

[Verse 2]

You made me stronger, braver, fearless

Absent-mindedly smiling in your warmth

But I’d rather be mindless, clueless, hurtless

Than having my hopes up, no more of them.

 

Maybe it’s chill, maybe I just miss you.

 

[Chorus]

Maybe I miss you

Maybe I long for you

It’s 4am, my eyes are red and my soul is blue

Maybe I’ll call for you

Maybe I’ll reach you

It doesn’t make sense, but I’m a fool

Maybe I love you.

 

[Verse 3]

How often do you think of me these days?

How happy are you without me?

Never thought I’d think of you this way

But you’re all that matters to me.

 

Maybe it’s all fine, maybe I just miss you.

 

[Verse 4]

You could bring out the best in me

Spent all my time and effort and money just to realize

Only you can catch my bad dreams

I’d trade all my time and effort and money just to be by your side.

 

Maybe it’s all good, maybe I just miss you.

 

[Chorus]

Maybe I miss you

Maybe I long for you

It’s 4:30am, my soul is filled by you and my eyes see the truth

Maybe I’ll call for you

Maybe I’ll reach you

No need to make sense, ‘cause I’ve always been a fool

A fool who’s loved you.

Always loved you.

 

By Juliéy Pham

Bet On Your Heart

Another heartbreak

You might be laughing at me

You said I always gave it all to them

You talked of me like you knew me

You rubbed my head

You called me a dork

But I bet on your heart

That we run the same course.

 

[Pre-chorus 1]

But I know you’re happy right now, I know

Or I’d like to be believe so

Because that’s my sole wish

For us to be happy

Even if not together

Will you promise me?

 

[Chorus 1]

But I bet on your heart,

That no one knows me like you

I bet on your heart

That no one feels me like you

I’ll bet on my heart

Don’t need no more tryouts, no one would.

 

[Pre-chorus 2]

You said what if I’d find someone amazing

What if I’d have no more feelings

All I want is to be serene

Baby tell me why it’s so hard?

People come and go, it’s always a gamble

I want to bet on your heart

Tell me, are you the King card?

 

[Chorus 2]

I bet on your heart

You wish I could run back to you

I bet on my heart

Even when it’s 7456 miles and more

You’re the one I’d always run back to

I’ll bet on our hearts

No matter how many more years, we would.

 

[Bridge]

I like to live in used-to-bes

I won’t reach out to you

Just ‘cause I’m too afraid to get hurt

By whatever it might be, the brutal truth

About how you might feel

About what you may think

So I’d rather not touch it

But you’d always reach for me…

 

[Chorus 3]

But I bet on your heart,

That no one knows me like you

I bet on your heart

That no one feels me like you

I’ll bet on my heart

Don’t need no more tryouts, no one would.

 

I bet on your heart

You wish I could run back to you

I bet on my heart

Even when it’s 7456 miles and more

You’re the one I’d always run back to

I’ll bet on our hearts

No matter how many more years, we would.

 

By Juliéy Pham

 

 

Doubts (Unsent Words)

Go ahead call him my first love

He wasn’t, I told you.

Stop talking about him, enough is enough

When would you believe, when I call you love, is true?

 

You could never see

That you saved me from him.

 

My one

You defeated them all

My dark knight

Of dust and dawn.

 

You swallowed what I wrote, bared your heart

Instead of me, you chose isolation first

Drowned yourself in a dark place, darker thoughts

Now I’m left with these unsent, bitter words.

 

It doesn’t matter anymore

I’m now the one with doubts

Go to your fucking hoes

Is all I can spit out.

 

By Juliéy Pham

Infatuation

You never knew what it was

Until you fell for him in just a short moment

Unreal, then real, then very unreal,

Then real. But “real” is something he can’t feel.

 

Mutual infatuation

Stuck in a warzone situation

Slightly hurt, major hurt

Attracted, angry, stimulated, depressed, joyful, jealous

Two souls and minds infatuated by the fun

Two bodies that can’t wait to become one.

 

Words that are like knives

Killed hearts that were too alike

Back and forth, you revenged yourselves on each other

The hurt and loneliness never felt better.

 

When he’s around dancing in the dark

Would you follow him to fall into his arms?

How great is his infatuation, you never know

Would he open his arms to catch you?

 

Infatuation

Now you know what it is

It was him you fell for, it was him you missed

Very real.

Something he probably didn’t feel

Or maybe he did,

but was too surreal

for him to keep.

 

By Juliéy Pham

Catching Flights and Feelings

Heathrow Airpor Terminal 4, Border Control, 20.09.18

Written as the writer was waiting in the long line at UK Border.

 

I caught another flight

To where you are

To where I was

To where we could have been

To where we’ll never be

To where I caught feelings.

 

I smell like him

Like my old bed sheet

Like his shirt he gave me

Like our finished business

Like my good old Guildford days

But the story won’t be ours.

 

I caught feelings

For him

Then for you

Then for him

I flew away from him

Just so I could fly to you.

 

I caught another flight

To where you are

To where I thought I’d be

But you’re not here

So I’ll take a turn to him

Who will be there

For me

And for us.

 

I didn’t need to catch flights

To catch feelings for you

You needed me to catch flights

To catch feelings for me

I did.

But your feelings got caught

And released.

His will be too

But won’t be.

 

Some day

I will smell like him

Not him

But him.

Who is he?

Is he you?

 

 

Or he.

 

By Juliéy Pham

In my feelings

For you, love.

 

I feel you everytime my hands are on my skin

Everytime I open my phone first thing in the morning

Everytime my body lies on my bed sheet

When I think of what we’d do next time I’m on another silent street.

Do you believe me?

 

I feel you as I imagine our cute dates

As I’d watch you finish your pizza plates

As we be taking cute pics and having cute brunches

As I’d watch you from my passenger seat on our road trips.

Do you believe me?

 

I feel you even when you’re not my knight in shining armor

When I knew we could only go as far as our wanders

But we can go as hard as when a volcano meets a tornado

Colliding in tenacity we’d be a raging storm.

Do you believe me?

 

I feel you when I dream of how I’d make you mine

When we be making love till the daylight

I feel you everytime my tears wet my pillow

As I’m locked inside my feelings, my from-time-to-time lover.

Do you believe me?

 

I feel you in your cold heart and flaws

Is this the final straw in our seesaw?

I feel you as we’re both trapped inside our sins

But love, I’d never break you in my feelings.

Do you believe me?

 

 

But I don’t regret a thing.

Even when there’s euphoria in my feelings.

 

Because you made me realize,

that not only in my poems that I’m a human

Whether or not memories will be made later in life

You made me learn to appreciate my emotions.

 

By Juliéy Pham

Tsunami

[Verse 1]

I was sailing far away

From all the stains

The serene ocean was mine

No sunshine

Rebel gene’s in my veins

No pain no gain

In the blink of an eye

You gave me a sign.

 

[Bridge]

Your tidal waves

Embraced me like fate

Intense and dangerous and gorgeous

Embraced us both with no faith

But for faith we ached

For us we ached.

 

[Chorus]

If only you knew, you’re the tsunami to my ocean

You were blue, I was lovesick in your motion

Wish I could sail further, wish you could take me away

If only you knew, you’re the tsunami to my ocean.

 

[Verse 2]

We did a deep dive

Out to sea

We took a deep dive

All at sea

You washed my pain away

As I let you in

Now you’re washed away

Left me with ruins.

 

[Bridge]

Your tidal waves

Embraced me like fate

Intense and dangerous and gorgeous

Embraced us both with no faith

But for faith we ached

For us we ached.

 

[Chorus]

If only you knew, you’re the tsunami to my ocean

You were blue, I was lovesick in your motion

Wish I could sail further, wish you would wash me away

If only you knew, you’re the tsunami to my ocean.

 

By Juliéy Pham

📍 in your feelings

[Chorus]

Say you’re not an emotionless husk

Would you hurt her while livin in your feelings

Give me a deathly hush

Would you allow your ego in your feelings

Say you’re not an emotionless husk

Would you hurt her while living in your feelings

Haven’t yet made it to king, but you outcrowned yourself as prince.

 

[Verse 1]

You know about them guys that went past

You know all about their nast

Why did you decide to follow their paths?

Drowned me in your literature, love, close your act

My tenacity, sincerity, sarcasm, intelligence you loved, my hopes you dashed

Man be telling me of no feelings, let me give you a round of ̶s̶̶m̶̶a̶̶c̶̶k̶s claps.

 

[Chorus]

Say you’re not an emotionless husk

Would you hurt her while livin in your feelings

Give me a deathly hush

Would you allow your ego in your feelings

Say you’re not an emotionless husk

Would you hurt her while livin in your feelings

Haven’t yet made it to king, but you outcrowned yourself as prince.

 

[Verse 2]

Enjoy living in your feelings, must be fun

No need to get out and get mine, dry run

‘Cause your life revolves round no one

but yourself in your feelings, wanted to be my only one

But ask yourself first if you did better than anyone

A queen in her feelings, would always confront

Hit-and-runs are for mortals, call yourself a king after you’ve hit a home run.

 

[Chorus]

Say you’re not an emotionless husk

Would you hurt her while livin in your feelings

Give me a deathly hush

Would you allow your ego in your feelings

Say you’re not an emotionless husk

Would you hurt her while livin in your feelings

Haven’t yet made it to king, but you outcrowned yourself as prince.

 

[Bridge]

Now I know why you didn’t like “Bad At Love” by Halsey

‘Cause she spoke your truth, “jealousy got the best in me”

But she spoke mine too, I thought you could fix me

But you went from a mystery to another history.

 

[Chorus]

Say you’re not an emotionless husk

Would you hurt her while livin in your feelings

Give me a deathly hush

Would you allow your ego in your feelings

Say you’re not an emotionless husk

Would you hurt her while livin in your feelings

Haven’t yet made it to king, but you outcrowned yourself as a prince.

 

Lyrics by Juliéy Pham

Lavendula

[Chorus]

I think you came for a reason

Just like how lavender blooms in summer season

Intensely, passionately, dangerously

Will you last at least before fall?

It’s fate, you’re the one I’m falling for

If you fade, will you kiss me gorgeously?

 

[Verse 1]

How did you know you’re my favorite

Sunshine, autumn leaf, winter breeze, spring snowflake

They faded to nothing as you filled up my mind

Tell me, are you the flower of mankind?

 

[Chorus]

I think you came for a reason

Just like how lavender blooms in summer season

Intensely, passionately, dangerously

Will you last at least before fall?

It’s fate, you’re the one I’m falling for

If you fade, will you kiss me gorgeously?

 

[Verse 2]

I want to run to you like a kid like you

I want to swallow your scent while you’re still new

I want to be lying on you as you’re lying endlessly

I want to be with you momentarily.

 

[Chorus]

I think you came for a reason

Just like how lavender blooms in summer season

Intensely, passionately, dangerously

Will you last at least before fall?

It’s fate, you’re the one I’m falling for

If you fade, will you kiss me gorgeously?

 

[Bridge]

You are more than just a scenery

You made my feelings seen, with nary

a shadow of a doubt, you’re the highlight of summer

It is to my insanity that you lent color.

 

[Chorus]

I think you came for a reason

Just like how lavender blooms in summer season

Intensely, passionately, dangerously

Will you last at least before fall?

It’s fate, you’re the one I’m falling for

If you fade, will you kiss me gorgeously?

 

Lyrics by Juliéy Pham

King

[Intro]

Your King at 17

My King at 18, whom I adore

Forever my King, forever more

 

[Verse 1]

Once upon a time and a few break-ups back

There was a King that ruled his empire

He got fame and money and all the ladies’ hearts

He was your 17-year-old-selves’ once in a life time.

 

Long hair slicked back, boots and rough shirts

He was a real King in the modern days

He would love you like his you were his first

Looking at you as if he was at a freaking star-gaze.

 

[Chorus]

He was never my King when he was yours

He entered my world, ended the either-ors

He’s not just another guy that peaks in high school

He can conquer the world even when it’s cruel

Even when his empire’s fallen

Not my heart for him as it’s golden

Your King at 17

My King at 18, whom I adore

Forever my King, forever more.

 

[Verse 2]

His empire was built from wind and dust

He was a lone-wolf that led an artist’s life

Your “popular” bad boy high school crush

That knight-errant, king-charming kind of style.

 

He drank, he smoked, he knew the coolest hangout spots

No one thought he could ever be tamed

He took you to his tower where you wouldn’t get caught

He left you but your heart’d forever know his name.

 

[Chorus]

He was never my King when he was yours

He entered my world, ended the ither-ors

He’s not just another guy that peaks in high school

He can conquer the world even when it’s cruel

Even when his empire’s fallen

Not my heart for him as it’s golden

Your King at 17

My King at 18, whom I adore

Forever my King, forever more.

 

By Juliéy Pham

Wonder wander

[Verse 1]

I hate to think about you as I’m walking under the sun

Don’t be conceited, as I’m about to tell you a bunch of puns

 

[Pre-chorus]

Sometimes I wonder wonder wonder

as I wander wander wander…

 

[Chorus 1]

Wonder if you still do a Marlboro pack per day

Wonder when’s the last time you were in Base

Wonder if you still sound English

Wonder if you know I have a smoking fetish

That if you smoke in front of me I no longer mind

In fact I’ll show you how to do it right.

 

[Verse 2]

I hate to admit thinking about you makes me over the moon

Don’t be conceited, after 3 years you’re still not that cool

 

[Pre-chorus]

But sometimes you make me wonder wonder wonder

As I wander and wonder as I wander…

 

[Chorus 2]

Wonder if you can still write my name

on your latte

Wonder if you’d still say

“Hey little shit stay in my pocket I’ll protect you always”

Wonder if you’re a good liar

as much as how you’re a smooth talker.

 

[Bridge]

I wonder about you as I put them records on

Wonder if you know you are in every song

That I listen to, then again I wonder

“Miami 82 (Kygo Remix)”, “Reforget”,

“Only You”, and every Blue track, do you remember?

 

[Pre-chorus]

Sometimes I wonder if you wonder wonder wonder

as you wander wander wander…

 

[Chorus 3]

Wonder if you still do a Marlboro pack per day

Wonder when’s the last time you were in Base

Wonder if you still sound English

Wonder if you know I have a smoking fetish

That if you smoke in front of me I no longer mind

In fact I’ll show you how to do it right.

 

Wonder if you can still write my name

on your latte

Wonder if you’d still say

“Hey little shit stay in my pocket I’ll protect you always”

Wonder if you’re a good liar

as much as how you’re a smooth talker.

 

[Outro]

Wonder if you’re still the gin to my tonic

Actually I hate gin tonic, how bout some Absinthe?

 

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

She(s)

 

[Verse 1]

I’m about to open our old chat

Where you described “she” upon my request

This song ain’t about “she” though, cause god knows who you’re bringing back

It’s about she(s), who’ve been helping you fix my mess.

 

[Chorus 1]

Do shes make history with you like we did?

Do shes write songs about you, I’m sure no one did

Do shes keep a scarf of yours, maybe some of them did

But I know shes don’t make you feel that very way I did

Though shes might make you happy and wanted

“I’m happy if you are”, that’s bullshit, love is selfish.

 

[Verse 2]

This ain’t a song about a she, you’re the only one I care about

Even though you may be with a she right now

Even after 3 years you and I might still go round and round

Would you quit she to play with me another round?

 

[Chorus 2]

Are she queens like me who act like they’re your princess?

Are shes who you noticed during every highschool recess?

Are shes looking for a king while she’s surrounded by princes?

Are shes those you be a douche to everyone else to treat her the best?

I was full of ghosts, yet loving you, I was fearless

Love is selfish, yet loving me, you were selfless.

 

[Bridge]

I like a he that can dance to any kind of music

You’ve been doing ballets to folk to electronic

Give me a call if you want a switch

Testing and testing just to realize your favorite is a house bitch (not a homely hoe though)

 

Cardi says, “I’m sure all the other girls are nice enough,

but you need a girl to spice it up”

You need a she that knows her stuff

I’m a house bitch who can play both soft and tough.

 

[Chorus 3]

Do shes make history with you like we did?

Do shes write songs about you, I’m sure no one did

Do shes keep a scarf of yours, maybe some of them did

But I know shes don’t make you feel that very way I did

Though shes might make you happy and wanted

“I’m happy if you are”, that’s bullshit, love is selfish.

 

Are she queens like me who act like they’re your princess?

Are shes who you noticed during every highschool recess?

Are shes looking for a king while she’s surrounded by princes?

Are shes those you be a douche to everyone else to treat her the best?

I was full of ghosts, yet loving you, I was fearless

Love is selfish, yet loving me, you were selfless.

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ 

 

 

Hear from myself

[Verse 1]

Didn’t think I’d write you another song

After you enjoyed my little show-and-tell

But I haven’t heard from you in so long

So I thought I’d hear from myself (and she says:)

 

[Pre-chorus]

These days our past is like my present

2 18-year-olds and a modern day story of Bonnie and Clyde

3 weeks, 3 months then another 3 months

I probably won’t escape you in the next 3 lives.

 

[Chorus]

I hear from myself and all I want is

To be with you like the good old days

To be electrified from the way you kissed

To put that jerky smile on your face.

 

[Verse 2]

Believe in whatever you believe in init

So should I believe when you say I’m your best lover?

I ain’t about all that sugarcoating shit

But, hands down you’re a smooth talker (and a motherfcker)

 

[Pre-chorus]

I love that our past has been my present

I love that I’m the Bonnie to your 18-year-old Clyde

3 weeks, 3 months then another 3 months

Please don’t lose me in the next 3 lives.

 

[Chorus]

I hear from myself and all I want is

To be next to you (not everyday but) every night

To see you at my front door so I won’t have to reminisce

To be the best duo that rule the Hanoian nightlife.

 

[Bridge]

Hear from myself but I can’t figure myself out

Lord knows why our past still haunts me

I wonder if you’re haunted too somehow

Not gonna lie, I’m secretly praying it’s a mutual feeling.

 

Hear from myself and I’m scared you’re out of reach

That you’re with someone this summer

If one day our love gets bleached

I’m glad it was filled with your silver, my red – our best colors.

 

[Chorus]

I hear from myself and all I want is

To be with you like the good old days

To be electrified from the way you kissed

To put that jerky smile on your face.

 

I hear from myself and all I want is

To be next to you (not everyday but) every night

To see you at my front door so I won’t have to reminisce

To be the best duo that rule the Hanoian nightlife.

 

[Outro]

I love that our past has been my present

I love that I’m the Bonnie to your 18-year-old Clyde

3 weeks, 3 months then another 3 months

Please don’t lose me in the next 3 lives.

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

These Days

Note: These Days is a bit of my life update, a bit of a self-reminder to living life to the fullest.

 

[Verse 1]

Yesterday

House party till dawn, never had that much fun

7 out of 10 ever targeted, nothing to be proud of

No one owned your heart, one even ripped it apart

One that got your mind, ended the night, with two confessions and a smile.

 

Woke up in a new room next day, realized it was your ex’s birthday

Well he’s off the hook, since his girl made him block you on Facebook

Yet another long ass happy birthday letter? Fuck that, I can do better

Not my fault your man’s not over me, don’t cha wish you were hot like me?

 

[Pre-chorus]

Been listening to Trigga and Bieber lately

Lots of old K-Pop ’cause oldies are goodies

Days and days filled with fun and laughter

BLΛƆKPIИK’s coming back soon, oh shit, you’re leaving uni 3 days after…

 

[Chorus]

These days

You live your best life, got nothing on your mind

Carefree, rebellious, hoping this feeling would last forever

These days

You seek something new, ‘cause your heart is black and blue

DMs, parties, old connections, ain’t hard to find pleasure.

 

[Verse 2]

Today

You don’t go for black tea, no more as it’s chilly

You prefer cold milk, semi-skimmed, and still

Need some dessert to bring on, as you play your favorite song

So you screw the formalities and place your order.

 

Some dark choc to go out of your way, best thing on a Tuesday

Then vanilla after? No thanks, ain’t exactly your flavor

What’s next is a fondue, classic but still cute

Finally, your favorite, a strawberry sweet.

 

[Pre-chorus]

Been listening to Trigga and Bieber lately

Lots of old K-Pop ’cause oldies are goodies

Days and days filled with fun and laughter

BLΛƆKPIИK’s coming back soon, oh shit, you’re leaving uni 3 days after…

 

[Chorus]

These days

You live your best life, got nothing on your mind

Carefree, rebellious, hoping this feeling would last forever

These days

You seek something new, ‘cause your heart is black and blue

DMs, parties, old connections, ain’t hard to find pleasure.

 

[Bridge]

Some days

You think, “Can it pleasure or harm me?”

This “missing your bed for days” kind of life

Listen to ZAYN, “Stop looking for love,

you’re young you still have time.

 

Something’s missing in your soul

Even with blown up DMs and hangouts

Not sure what you’re looking for anymore

But girl just take your ride for now.

 

All that matters is probably nothing

Without someone’s presence, you still have your blessings.

 

[Chorus]

These days

You live your best life, got nothing on your mind

Carefree, rebellious, hoping this feeling would last forever

These days

You seek something new, ‘cause your heart is black and blue

DMs, parties, old connections, ain’t hard to find pleasure.

 

[Outro]

After this song ends, the morning will come

You wake up freshly and conquer the world till dusk

Auburn make-up’s removed, this song goes on repeat again

Don’t doubt yourself girl, live your life as if it’s your last.

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

Featured image by pM 

 

Afterword

 

What are feelings?

Are they something you give me?

Or are they something you give me in my imaginations,

dreams, poetry and fantasies?

 

What are you?

Surely not a God or a saint

I called you a king, an inspiration

But a real king would be responsible for his claims.

 

What am I?

Everyone thinks I’m the queen of the universe

To you I’m not only the girl you’re “attracted to”

But also a bump in the road you try to swerve.

 

You asked, “do you trust everything I’ve said?”

Trust doesn’t matter anymore

You sought my trust that one time,

so you could burn all the others into straw.

 

Surely you weren’t lying

‘Cause why would you lie to your queen?

But after all you’re only looking for a princess

It takes tons more trainings to get to me.

 

Hate to admit I might’ve been mistaken

But you’re probably just the third fool

Thanks for all the blessings and the wishes

But I would’ve still conquered the world without you.

I would’ve still built my empire without you.

 

I’m daunted at this repeated circle of emotions

Falling, hurting, and sad poetry

But I’m glad I could taste feelings to know I’m still human

I don’t trap myself in limited time, like somebody.

 

Suddenly I don’t feel lighthearted no more

You ate my heart like a delicacy

Should have known this was inevitable

In the holy saint’s torture, I was granted ecstasies.

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

Featured image from WeHeartIt.

Delicacy

[Verse 1]

Somehow I always bump into you

Isn’t it destiny?

I’m in love with every of our moments

‘Cause I know we won’t ever be.

 

[Pre-chorus]

Thinking about you, I’m so delicate

Even though I try to be strong always

The way you held me today felt different

Tell me, did you feel the same way?

 

[Chorus]

There was delicacy in how you touched me

In the way you pulled me closer

Delicacy’s in my thoughts, actions and glances

My god I wish delicacy would last longer.

 

[Verse 2]

We’re always matching when we randomly meet

Your blonde hair and my top, my auburn brows and your hoodie

I wonder if I’m the only one that

Noticed today’s shades of khaki.

 

[Pre-chorus]

Thinking about you, I’m so delicate

My delicacy, don’t you know it’s so hard to hide?

You could see that I smiled and told jokes

But you couldn’t see I was dying inside.

 

[Chorus]

There was delicacy in how you touched me

In the way you pulled me closer

Delicacy’s in my thoughts, my actions, my glances

My god I wish delicacy would last longer.

 

[Bridge]

Is there delicacy in you?

Were you nervous, intimidated, or shy?

Don’t be.

For a moment I felt like your petite girlfriend

Did you see delicacy in my eyes?

Maybe…

 

[Chorus]

There was delicacy in how you touched me

In the way you pulled me closer

Delicacy’s in my thoughts, actions and glances

My god I wish delicacy would last longer.

 

 

 

 

[Hidden track]

I don’t want to write another sad song

I just want to be lighthearted and chill

I feel you, my life is also hectic

But I j wish you would kill time with me.

 

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

Featured image by WeHeartIt.

Don’t

Don’t come to me

then leave me hanging

Told you I’m sweet,

so I keep on wondering

Besides that I’m attractive,

what else are you thinking?

 

I’m no one’s side chick,

so don’t carelessly text me

I’m too sweet,

don’t need no sugar daddy

Don’t be mindless, or I’ll let you taste

bitter and salty.

 

You can do better than a “hey-how-are-you”

so don’t be shy

Don’t leave me heartbroken

Don’t leave me dead inside

Don’t be the third goof,

who plays the dupe

Show me your move

It’s your time to shine.

 

Don’t waste more time,

and do better than waiting or playing

As only one more day and

you know we’ll both be dying

I’m sick of the midnight nostalgia

Sick of the lovesick so far

We can be midnight nostalgic together

Time’s almost up, please shine.

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

Featured image from WeHeartIt

Babe you just so cool

[Verse 1]

I’m such a sucker for the way you look

Feels like I’m deceased everytime you move

Would you believe me I could write you a songbook?

Come to me and I’ll leave my phone off the hook.

Now since you’re here, are you already blushing?

I’ve told you how I feel, yet this is a different kinda feeling

Are you as pure and innocent as I think?

Anyway who cares, why would I question my king?

 

[Chorus] 

Babe you just look so cool

You sound so cool

I bet you taste cool too

Sorry…

Was that too bold?

I like it when you’re calm and cold

Just don’t overdo it though

 

[Verse 2]

My friends think I’m lovestruck

Awestruck, starstruck, thunderstruck…

Maybe, but I don’t give a fuck

You are better than my best luck.

I think you can make me happy

Although you never use emojis

Sometimes it drives me crazy

That’s why our hangouts mean so much to me…

 

[Chorus]

Babe you just look so cool

You sound so cool

I bet you taste cool too

Sorry…

Was that too bold?

I like it when you’re calm and cold

Just don’t overdo it though

 

[Bridge]

Babe I know you think I’m cool

I’m no longer a cat on a hot tin roof

I let you see through me, only you could.

 

[Chorus]

Babe you just look so cool

You sound so cool

I bet you taste cool too

Sorry…

Was that too bold?

I like it when you’re calm and cold

Just don’t overdo it though

 

[Outro]

Now I’m just chilling, with or without you

But still, I can’t help daydreaming about you

You’re the drug I’m willing to overuse.

 

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

Featured image from WeHeartIt.

Sunset Jesus

Note: The title of the poem is not relevant to the poem itself.

 

It’s been a long time since I last saw you

From the glass window, when the sky was blue

Well we could have met again today

As I know you work every Wednesday.

 

You don’t know much about me

Apart from “that girl who ain’t bound by norms in society”

I don’t know much about you

All I know is your inspiring views.

 

Too bad I don’t intend to know you more

I keep on thinking I’m too busy to open another door

Shame on you, haha, you’re missing out

There is a different someone behind some dope Instagram account.

 

I think you’re pretty cool too, and I’ll tell you why

More than just a blonde haircut and an outstanding height

You’re the one who prays to the Lord and always tries his best

The kind of person that says hi to 10 folks within his 3 steps.

 

(Sorry I could think of other things to talk about you babe

But I wouldn’t want to sound like a fangirl, or maybe it’s too late?)

 

Seems like everyone likes to be your friend

Everyone, except for me, it’s always a dead end

Shyness kills me, if only you knew

Although I fake it till I make it, and you like that, don’t you?

 

Still not sure if this is an admiration or a crush

Anyhow, it is a nice feeling I haven’t felt in ages

You inspire me to be a better person

To feel so light-hearted writing this poem.

 

“God bless you, wherever you go.”

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

Featured image from WeHeartIt.

 

spring snowflake. (pt. 2)

For the spring snowflake.

Yes, that’s your nickname.

You’ll know this cheeky one is about you as you read it.

P/S: I’m still cool lol

 

[Intro]

snowflakes have melted into the harsh ground

like how your trusting smile has melted my heart.

 

[Verse 1]

i hate to think this way:

that it was all in my head

that somehow I caught your interest.

all the looks, glances and laughs

in between the jokes, signals and wit,

do they mean nothing to you at least just two bits?

 

[Pre-chorus]

telling me not to hold on to false hopes,

which you yourself endearingly created

you might think you were doing me good

you never owed me a favor, so who were you trying to serve a purpose?

 

[Chorus]

snowflakes have melted into the harsh ground

like how your trusting smile has melted my heart

snowflakes soon became cold water

just like how all the memories swiftly got lost.

 

[Verse 2]

i love to think this way:

that when we made time, you were serious

that when I was flirting with your friends, you were jealous.

correct me if i was wrong

but still, i never asked for your pity

i never needed you to be sorry.

 

[Pre-chorus]

you were solo, i wasn’t that busy

the champaign was set, all it was left was to bring your body

since your invite was passed, be aware, ain’t nobody like me

welcome to the “i was missing out” list.

 

[Chorus]

snowflakes have melted into the harsh ground

like how your trusting smile felt like heaven’s touch

snowflakes soon became cold water

leaving me here feeling bad for your loss.

 

[Bridge]

you probably think I’m bulletproof

you took advantage of my chills

you think you gave me an answer

but another billion reasons will never sweeten the pill.

 

[Chorus]

snowflakes have melted into the harsh ground

like how your trusting smile has melted my heart

snowflakes soon became cold water

just like how all the memories swiftly got lost.

 

snowflakes have melted into the harsh ground

like how your trusting smile felt like heaven’s touch

snowflakes soon became cold water

leaving me here feeling bad for your loss.

 

 

Lyrics and featured image by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

spring snowflake.

[Verse 1]

once again, i fell

don’t know why, thought it was over

but you did it so well

maybe unintentionally, but ain’t nobody do it better.

 

for years I was guarded

too afraid to catch feelings

finally the door was open, I knew I’d get hurt

yet I became brave and willing.

 

[Chorus]

you said you didn’t want me to get false hopes

but it was too late not to grow expectations

i was already running down the treacherous slope

now I wish nothing would have happened.

 

[Verse 2]

it all starts to make sense now

Tori definitely speaks my truths

it was all in my head somehow

the monologue is as rough as how dialogue was smooth.

 

now i can’t help but ask if i was good enough

would you ever fall for her, or her?

i’m not the same girl you think is tough

why won’t you come at midnight and blow my cover?

 

[Chorus]

you said you didn’t want me to get false hopes

but it was impossible not to grow expectations

your face, your voice had me run down the treacherous slope

then i ended up crying you an ocean.

 

[Bridge]

trying to avoid the songs we played

we were on each side, a 3-hour video call

in the end, maybe I was crazed

and fell for some dream-like trickery, that’s all.

 

[Chorus]

you said you didn’t want me to get false hopes

but it was too late not to grow expectations

i was already running down the treacherous slope

now I wish nothing would have happened.

 

you said you didn’t want me to get false hopes

but it was impossible not to grow expectations

your face, your voice had me run down the treacherous slope

then i ended up crying you an ocean.

 

[Outro]

sunshine, autumn leaf, winter breezes

a winter breeze could’ve turned into a magnolia

instead, you chose to be a spring snowflake

promise me, you won’t come back as a wisteria.

 

Lyrics and featured image by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

 

 

 

 

a song about “they”.

they all say you’re attractive

adore your eyes like there’s no tomorrow

talk to you like there’s only day left to live

“cut the bullshit, tell me something I don’t know.”

 

they are all big big nightowls

like to call you anytime past 12

they love your auburn eyebrows

they’re average boys that do it so well.

 

they think you’re busy like a bee

that they’re just another boy in the line

when you tend to cry yourself to sleep

and you’re a tough case to like.

 

they think you’re flirty and sexual

wonder if it puts them off or turns them on

when they’re with you, everything becomes sensual

if you think they don’t want you, you must be wrong.

 

they only see your savage side

only in your songs that you’re a human

they love your rare laughs and smiles

forever they will know you as a demon.

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

Featured image from WeHeartIt.

peace.

they call me a surreal poet

i live in my rhythm at its best

even when there’s no hope left

my poetry is eternal, no regrets.

 

my leaf necklace, your plume earring

are the remnants of our little fling

close resemblance, far off strings

heartfelt apology for not making you my king.

 

“get to know me, you might find a disappointment.”

we were the gamers in our own challenge

you could’ve been my end game, yet ending the game was my decision

we both moved on, so tell me why sparks still fly in our moments.

 

is it the strong aura surrounding you?

is it the taste of your lips I never knew?

is it our mutual awkwardness, is it true?

or is it the recollection of our old memories, who knew?

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

Featured image from WeHeartIt.

lonely souls.

[Intro]

two lonely souls

what’s going to happen when we grow old?

 

[Verse 1]

okay so I get it,

you’re not going to date me

even if you love me to bits

i’m too precious you can’t lose me.

 

okay so do you get it?

i’m not going to date you

i don’t have time to witness

you paint me red then paint me blue.

 

[Pre-chorus]

it may be only in my head

that there’s something between us two

i’ve probably been blinded by a mess

created by our lonely souls, we never knew.

 

[Chorus]

it’s our lonely souls that are the source of tension

it’s the two lonely souls that have this chemistry

then it’s down to us to take actions,

in which case, you choose me.

 

[Verse 2]

i like to talk about my exes

you like to ask me who i’m seeing, how I’ve been

a bit about music, some bits about sex

enough for a midnight chitchat, don’t you think?

 

[Pre-chorus]

i often think about you at night

i used to think ‘cause we have history

now we’re friends and i still do, don’t know why

have you become my midnight company?

 

[Chorus]

it’s our lonely souls that are the source of tension

it’s the two lonely souls, where our feelings grew

then it’s down to us to take actions,

in which case, i choose you.

 

[Bridge]

do you still like that i’m cold and blunt

even when I deliberately try to hurt you

your lonely soul, your voice, your gaze, is what i want

is it mine that you’ve been yearning for too?

 

[Chorus]

in a few months, when we drift apart

will our intertwined lonely souls split up too?

as we grow up and get more scars in our hearts

is it my soul that you’d wish to come back to?

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

Featured image from WeHeartIt.

JAIYLM

[Intro]

2am

notifications that I’d missed

opened my DMs, guess who texted me again

if it ain’t ‘cause you miss me, then I don’t know what is…

 

 

[Verse 1]

gimme that look like I’m your queen

like me for that i’m blunt and mean.

tell me i’m cool and “progressive”

ugh, sure, you mean “addictive”.

hit me up at booty call hours

trust me, boy, you know better.

feel the sexual chemistry

at least one kiss is what you want from me.

 

 

[Pre-chorus]

why you always curious ’bout who I’m hanging out with,

when i say “a friend”, you need to say i’m being vague,

if you’re not crushing on me?

why say i’m jealous upon hearing you’re with someone else,

if it’s not to make you feel good about yourself,

if you have no feelings for me?

 

 

[Chorus]

why going through all these,

when you can just confess your feelings to me?

why keep convincing yourself we’re friends,

yet everything you do screams “I want to be your man”?

doesn’t it ever occur to you even just a bit

what you think you’re meaning versus what you’re implying are the direct opposites?

 

if you’re willing to play this game

you better have rebel gene in your veins.

if you’re a player then you’re a companion

we can have a little adventure down the canyon.

you can keep hiding that you’ve fallen head over heels

or you can surrender, it won’ hurt admitting you’ve caught feels.

 

everybody likes the taste of something new

i’m pretty sure a confession is all I want from you.

 

 

[Verse 2]

without any doubts, I can tell

you can’t help yourself when I’m around.

too busy for another taken life

but we’re too good you can’t let us slide.

you like my company, I like yours

yet somehow we can’t not ask for more.

making “friends” an excuse for everything you do

oh baby, the wise king, who you tryna fool?

 

 

[Pre-chorus]

do you see the sexual tensions we create,

that you and I can’t even escape

is it just me, or is it your fear?

don’t you know as you think you’re denying,

those 3 words are what you’re secretly screaming?

admit it, just what I want to hear.

 

 

[Chorus]

why going through all these,

when you can just confess your feelings to me?

why keep pushing ourselves into the friendzone,

while all you want is to make me your own?

doesn’t it ever occur to you even just a bit,

what you think you’re meaning versus what you’re implying are the direct opposites?

 

if you’re willing to play this game

you better have some rebel gene in your veins.

if you’re a player then you’re a companion

we can both have a little adventure down the canyon.

you can keep hiding that you’ve fallen head over heels

or you can give it to me, don’t be scared to catch feels.

 

everybody likes the taste of something new

i’m pretty sure a make-out is all I want from you.

 

 

[Bridge]

if you’re claiming we’re chums,

then you better act like one.

start from the basics,

get over your lovesick.

stop pressing me for who i’m dating,

obviously it’s not you, my king.

one or two sexual jokes is fine,

but more than three then you can’t lie.

 

 

[Chorus]

why going through all these,

when you can just confess your feelings to me?

why keep convincing yourself we’re friends,

yet everything you do screams “i want to be your man”?

doesn’t it ever occur to you even just a bit

what you think you’re meaning versus what you’re implying are the direct opposites?

 

if you’re willing to play this game

you better have some rebel gene in your veins.

if you’re a player then you’re a companion

we can both have a little adventure down the canyon.

you can keep hiding that you’ve fallen head over heels

or you can surrender, it won’ hurt admitting you’ve caught feels.

 

we want no commitments, we just want something new

i’m pretty sure i look better on you than blue.

 

 

Text by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

Featured image by WeHeartIt.

before i go. (winter breeze.)

[Intro]

i’m writing this song before I go

my hidden thoughts, I thought you should know.

 

[Verse 1]

guess I really can’t concentrate

back at my desk, 2:00am, still it’s never too late.

it’s our golden hour

half all-nighter.

for the first time I felt like I could tell you

all the things you wished you knew.

 

[Pre-chorus]

you said there should be only honesty between us

so here you go…

 

[Chorus]

told you we clicked, but it was your kindness,

your laugh, the way you look at me,

that I fell for.

told you I was okay, but I was always distracted,

charmed, mesmerized,

like never before.

i’m writing this song before I go

my hidden thoughts, I thought you should know.

 

[Verse 2]

although we were separate I could still feel the connection

as you walked in, I was too afraid to handle the tensions.

you looked like you wanted to stay longer

i was nervous, stressed out, I should have done better.

 

[Pre-chorus]

i couldn’t tell you in person but if you ever end up here

i hope you know…

 

[Chorus]

told you we clicked, but it was your kindness,

your laugh, the way you look at me,

that I fell for.

told you I was okay, but I was always distracted,

charmed, mesmerized,

like never before.

i’m writing this song before I go

my hidden thoughts, I thought you should know.

 

[Bridge]

we are twin burning signs of fire

you are simply my favorite person.

everytime we meet, even only once in a while

i just wish time would stop, even for just for a moment.

my favorite person, no hope, no expectation.

i’m writing this song before I go

my hidden thoughts, I thought you should know.

 

[Chorus]

told you we clicked, but it was your kindness,

your laugh, the way you look at me,

that I fell for.

told you I was okay, but I was always distracted,

charmed, mesmerized,

like never before.

so before I go, maybe you could tell me…

did you enjoy those hours of talks we had?

did you want to say something then hold it back?

do you mind your feelings you probably did catch?

would you say yes if I ever asked?

 

[Outro]

i’m writing this song before I go

please keep it in your heart, now that you know.

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

Featured image from WeHeartIt.

the scarf.

[Verse 1]

buried deep in my wardrobe

abandoned for almost 3 years.

the old scent has vanished

memories still remain here.

 

this morning, i pulled out a piece of you,

and realized another anniversary is near.

perfectly matching my black on black outfit,

It felt like you were here.

 

[Post-chorus]

18-year-old girl,

living life to the fullest, drinking tons of beer.

teal was the new black

Christmas vibes filled the atmosphere.

 

[Chorus]

our best memory created,

was in your scarf on you.

you’d wear it in all your pics,

somehow it’s still new.

reminds me of my best Christmas,

everyday, every date with a view.

 

[Verse 2]

wrapped around my neck,

is the eight shades of you.

crazy, rebellious, smooth, adventurous

hysterical, forward, gentle, playful.

 

[Post-chorus]

21-year-old queen,

living life to the fullest, only Malibu no beer.

teal is still the new black

Christmas vibes filling the atmosphere.

 

[Chorus]

our best memory created,

was your teal scarf on you.

you’d wear it on all your pics,

somehow it’s still new.

reminds me of my best Christmas,

everyday, every date with a view.

 

to see me in your teal scarf,

wouldn’t it be your dream-come-true?

now that I look in the mirror,

i wish you only knew, it’d be mine too.

 

[Bridge]

the last time we hung out I gotta admit,

it amazed me how fast time flew.

playfully, you said to return the scarf if I’m not wearing it,

but why would I when I rock it better than you do?

why would I give back the last piece I keep of you?

 

[Chorus]

our best memory created,

was your teal scarf on you.

you’d wear it on all your pics,

somehow it’s still new.

reminds me of my best Christmas,

everyday, every date with a view.

 

to see me in your teal scarf,

wouldn’t it be your dream-come-true?

now that I look in the mirror,

i wish you only knew, it’d be mine too.

 

the only memory I have left,

is your teal scarf on me.

if you haven’t heard enough of this:

“love(d) you, homie.”

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

hypnotized.

 

Horoscope says around you I shouldn’t act shy

My friends say you got that playboy vibes

My brain says “Don’t lose focus” when I look into your eyes

What do you say? Should I make you mine?

You got me hypnotized

With your lips, your hair, your style

Your smooth talking, which annoyingly resembles mine

The way you move, laugh, your hip vibes

Got me hypnotized.

I may appear a meanie to you, yet if you look closer

There’s a whole debate going on under my cover

Whether I should be a talker or an observer

Yeye, act natural,

but how to avoid the friendzone matters.

You got me hypnotized

With your lips, your hair, your style

Your smooth talking, which annoyingly resembles mine

The way you move, laugh, the hip vibes

Got me hypnotized.

Put your name on my notifications, blow them up

Get down in my DMs, don’t hol up

The line was long, till you took all their places

Here’s your first-class invitation, better not be late.

You got me hypnotized

With your lips, your hair, your style

Your smooth talking, which annoyingly resembles mine

The way you move, laugh, the hip vibes

Got me hypnotized.

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ
Featured image from WeHeartIt.

inspiration.

I write about you like I write about me

Like I write about my ideal significant other

About the perfect scenarios that didn’t take place

And the remaining memories from summer.

 

I write about you like I love DEAMN songs

Them fresh vibes make me dance on the roof

Give Me Your Love, Drive My Car, Summer Love

Are they on your bedtime playlist too?

 

I write about you like my nighttime habit

Been the sweet habit for months

Been the drug to cure my loneliness

Link in my Instagram bio, you’re welcome.

 

I write about you like about no one else

There’s nobody like you, boring yet different

Some day, someone will come and take your place

But until then, thanks for the inspiration.

 

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

Featured image from WeHeartIt.

 

the sequel.

[Verse 1]

I told myself,

The day I flew away from Hanoi

Would end this chapter called “Sunshine”.

Thought I couldn’t be wrong

Since no one else has lit up the London sky.

 

But summer is the nostalgia season

I got no one in the line but summer memories.

There’re days I think about us for no reason

The Sequel shall be the next melody.

 

[Chorus]

The Sequel starts in August 2018

One year has sure changed us a lot.

But what we say is all that we mean

“Let’s tick off last year’s date, ready or not.”

 

[Verse 2]

Autumn brings nostalgic moments

I’m drowning in the memories of our own.

There’re days you think about me for many reasons

Hanoi suddenly lives in the London time zone.

 

[Chorus]

The Sequel opens somewhere in Switzerland

January 2019, there’s still warmth from sunshine.

We take a trip to the high mountains

Music playing, late night chats by the fire.

 

[Bridge]

You’re floating in and out of my life

I’m writing songs just to keep us here.

You bring me joy from time to time

The Sequel goes on with no promises.

 

[Chorus]

The Sequel ends at your wedding

2020, you already switched jobs.

“We’re not done yet, don’t say yes darling…”

I whispered, hoping I will get caught.

 

[Outro]

You’re floating in and out of my life

I’m writing songs just to keep you near.

But the day sunshine’s gone to another sky

Shall hopefully end our last chapter here.

 

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

Featured image from WeHeartIt.

always been.

[Verse 1]

Last time,

We looked into each other’s eyes

Your eyes were full of shyness

My eyes were full of hatred.

 

You thought I hated you that much

In fact, “hate” can never be enough

If I looked at you with a distant stare

It was as painful as how you left me in despair.

 

But don’t you know…

 

[Chorus]

It’s always been my eyes that longed for your figure

It’s always been my mind that was on your body

It’s always been in my songs that we were lovers

It’s always been me.

 

[Verse 2]

Last time,

Seeing you in that same spot, I faked a smile

Your eyes on me were like swords

Walking past you, I felt like a coward.

 

The way you played with my head

With your cold expressions then sometimes a laugh

Was why I never put my feelings into words

Inside my indifference, all I felt was hurt.

 

But don’t you know…

 

[Chorus]

It’s always been your smile that brighten up my day

It’s always been your heart that I wished I knew

It’s always been in my dreams that I’d see your face

It’s always been you.

 

 [Bridge]

Now that we are 7500 miles apart

Why are you still bothered to mess up my heart?

I could write 7500 songs for you, and still counting

That probably still can’t tell you my feelings.

 

[Chorus]

It’s always been my eyes that longed for your figure

It’s always been my mind that was on your body

It’s always been in my songs that we were lovers

It’s always been me.

 

It’s always been your smile that brighten up my day

It’s always been your heart that I wished I knew

It’s always been in my dreams that I’d see your face

It’s always been you.

 

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

Featured image from WeHeartIt.

 

1st day of fall.

When you start crying as you’re all alone

When every 5 minutes you grab your phone

When your body is pleasured but your heart is empty

That’s when you bitterly realize 2 things you need.

 

You have 2 souls on your mind

You miss 2 hearts at the same time

The sunshine that warms you no more

The first autumn leaf that is yet to fall.

 

Craving for the sunshine

As it’s gone to another sky

Longing for the autumn leaf

That is so silent indeed.


Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

Featured image from Google Images.

94th day of summer

Are you as lonely as I am right now?
Are you online or thinking out loud?

How could you fall asleep while I’m still awake?
How many more smiles will I have to fake?

Will you keep your promise to give us a chance?
Will you save me your first dance?

Did you forget our last date before I go?
Didn’t you wish I missed you more than you’d ever know?

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ
Featured image from WeHeartIt.

Lynch

[Verse 1]

The story began with a message from Ms. Anonymous

“You owe me a drink,

P/S: We’re 1/4 away on Earth”

You said “I’ve laid my eyes on you since you were taken.”

I swallowed your words with indifference.

 

Never knew Christmas would mean so much

Didn’t need no other, I got you and that was enough

A smoker, a bartender, a smooth talker

New Year’s Eve at Base couldn’t get better.

 

[Pre-chorus]

You were given that player label

“Stay away from him”, people warned me, “be careful”

For them, you were too much to handle

But they didn’t know,

You met me – “bad meets evil”.

 

[Chorus]

2 opposite stars became one

We shone brighter than the sun

You, me, our jokes on your motorbike

Doing what we do best: love all day, party all night.

 

My youth is yours, and I know yours is mine

Living our glorious rebel lives

We are lovers, brothers and best friends

Summer never felt so good, never seemed to end.

 

[Verse 2]

You’re the sex on my beach

You’re Marlboro to my red wine

You’re the gin to my tonic

You were drunk in my love just as how you made me high.

 

[Pre-chorus]

You were given that player label

“Stay away from him”, people warned me, “be careful”

For them, you were too much to handle

But they didn’t know,

You met me – “bad meets evil”.

 

[Chorus]

2 opposite stars became one

We shone brighter than the sun

You, me, our jokes on your motorbike

Doing what we do best: love all day, party all night.

 

My youth is yours, and I know yours is mine

Living our glorious rebel lives

We are lovers, brothers and best friends

Summer never felt so good, never seemed to end.

 

[Bridge]

“I don’t need no more chicks

to realize you can’t be beat”

Even now, with that playful smooth talk

You’re the butterflies effect on my heart.

 

[Chorus]

2 opposite stars became one

We shone brighter than the sun

You, me, our roads, your motorbike

We loved what we did best, everyday everynight.

 

My youth is yours, and I know yours is mine

Living our glorious rebel lives

The realest summer love I’ve ever had

If you were a mistake, it’d be the best I’ve ever made

Calling you lover, best friend, fling, whatever

Still, the best sunshine that ever came.

 

Lyrics and featured image by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

The passenger seat

[Verse 1]

Friday,

You picked me up on my driveway

20 to 8, you rang me

I answered playfully yet nervously.

 

Opened your door and stepped in

Your music was already playin’

Small stalk, followed by smiles and laughs

If only I knew it was our best night we’d ever have.

 

[Chorus]

My favorite place to ever be

Is your Figaro passenger seat

We would drive away dangerously

Your engine outvoices my heartbeat.

 

[Verse 2]

We drove around West Lake

Till we saw those palms behind our office

You took me round the city

Everywhere we went remains a memory.

 

[Bridge]

Don’t leave too soon…

 

[Chorus]

My favorite place to ever be

Is your Figaro passenger seat

We would drive away furiously

Our music outvoices my heartbeat.

 

My favorite thing to ever do

Is to lie on your passenger seat and watch you

That summer night holiday was a thrill

We enjoyed it most when we had no clues

Please mark it in your heart, as I will.

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1s

Featured image by Elie Dahdouh

Sunshine

Another summer is passing by
There goes also my sunshine.

 

[Verse 1]

Last summer, my sunshine passed me
12 vs. 13, only one cloud in between
Two lives went on, absent-mindedly
As time went by, sunshine was left behind.

You found your someone, you let each other go
I thought I could too, but people come and go
They had us keep our expectations low
Until I paid your sky a visit, and you paid mine.

 

[Pre-chorus]

We both passed sunshine for thunders
But in the end, after rain comes fair weather.

 

[Chorus]

Dear sunshine
Thank you for uncovering yourself this time
After four years with no effect of butterflies
You’re the gasoline, I’m the fire
We bring temporary happiness with no strings attached.

 

[Verse 2]

But sunshine and I don’t live under the same sky
When I fall asleep is when you shine
I’m nervous, you’re scared, we play with our feelings and minds
Little by little, here comes darkness.

 

[Chorus]

Dear sunshine
Thank you for revealing yourself this time
After four years, I can finally see sparks fly
You show me that fire-gasoline chemistry can’t be denied
Even if it’s temporary happiness with no strings.

 

Sunshine lights up empty worlds
How many have you passed by and twirled?
Sunshine lights up empty souls
How many have you left in the cold?

 

[Bridge]

Sunshine follows me where I go
Sunshine thinks he knows it all
But doesn’t know he is my cure
Doesn’t know we’re everglow.

 

Thunderstorm’s replaced sunshine and taken over summer
That’s when I realized it’s almost over
But I know bright days are coming closer
Because, after rain comes fair weather.

 

[Chorus]

Thank you for showing up at the perfect time
After four years, I can finally see sparks fly
That fire-gasoline chemistry is forever there as we collide
Even if it’s temporary happiness with no strings.

 

[Outro]

I don’t wish for you to be in love with no one else
I don’t wish you will have nobody waiting on you
There’ll be other dark skies,
that long for your light
and blue skies
that embrace your light
But I hope you enjoyed your stay at mine.

 

Lyrics and featured image by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

The One

I finally found an inspiration to get back to my song-writing habit.

This is different from previous times when I wrote about someone or something with “a-longing-and-a-bit-sad” feeling.  This time, it’s more of a confused feeling but more importantly, prepared for whatever’s about to happen.

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The One

[Vocal] Definitely not you.

 

[Verse 1]

Decisive

Straightforward

Determined

Always tells me what’s really on his mind.

Adventurous

Rebellious

Generous

He’s the most perfect of all mankind.

But he’s not you.

He’s the opposite of you.

 

[Pre-chorus]

My best friend says I like you only ’cause you’re different

From the one I’ve been searching for.

 

[Chorus]

Them guys who came to make me confused

They soon disappeared after their job was due

Although what you make me feel is brand new

“The one”, is definitely not you.

 

[Verse 2]

Too focused on the looks

Likes to settle, hates to move

Reading you is like reading a holy book

Makes me stuck in your maze-like mind.

Full of confusions

Complicated expressions

Annoys me more than often

You’re the worst of all mankind.

 

[Pre-chorus]

My best friend tells me to be careful

You’re the last one I should fall for.

 

[Chorus]

Them guys who came to make me confused

They soon disappeared after their job was due

Although what you make me feel is brand new

“The one”, is definitely not you.

 

I know you’re far from “the one”

Out of those that have and will come

Even with the laughs, the hearts, the fun

It ain’t hard to get undone.

 

[Bridge]

Rihanna says, “You’re the one that I dream about all day”

Well say hello to the nightmares you bring me always

True you’re different, but “unique” is what I prefer

I’m not your Letty, and you ain’t no Joker.

 

[Chorus]

Them guys who came to make me confused

They soon disappeared after their job was due

Although what you make me feel is brand new

“The one”, is definitely not you.

 

I know you’re far from “the one”

Out of those that have and will come

Even with the laughs, the hearts, the fun

It ain’t hard to get undone.

 

[Outro]

Always tells me what’s really on his mind

The most perfect of all mankind.

“The one”, the opposite you

“The one”, as long as he’s not you.

 

Lyrics by ᴊᴜʟɪᴇʏᴛʜᴇ1sᴛ

Featured image by Tamaki